This is a small attempt on my behalf to put forth in words the pain,
turmoil and emotions of those, when they attempted suicide.

How I wished I could have lived more…..
I wanted to,
But there was no way, that I could find…..
I was trapped in my own mind ….

My life was very beautiful and kind,
Before this new friend stepped in …
Slowly, it started encroaching my mind,
filling it with darkness and grim ….

I tried hard to push it out…
I wanted to cry, yell and scream,
Many times I even tried to tell you aloud ….
but you were too busy with your dreams…

My lips refused to bear the burden of fake smile,…
My eyes could pretend no more ,
My body was numb with pain and fear…
The demons in my mind had shut every door…

Believe me, I tried till the end..
I too had dreams to fulfill, my friend …
But slowly I started losing hope ,
I couldn’t find a way to cope…

How I wish someone would have asked…
While I was drifting apart,
Maybe, I would have lived longer…
I wanted to ….
but left with no choice, I had to depart….

© Dr Vijayashree Muthe. Consultant Psychiatrist,
Muthe Hospital, Jalgaon.